Sep 20, 2010

Goodbye My Senior Year Adonis

Today while doing my morning routines, I received two missed calls from Cye, one of my high school friends. It was heart shattering when I found out the reason for that unexpected call, his ex-boyfriend, Timothy died last night because of a motorcycle accident. It has been 6 years since I last visited that 8 hour drive, dusty and small town called Lamut, the place where I ended my high school years. Timothy Tulac a.k.a. "Timot" and Cye has been a few of my friends who kept in touch after I left the place.
Going back to memory lane, when I was in my senior year, there is this thing where in we vote for class President, Vice-Pres. and such, I was voted as Muse and Timot was my Escort(Adonis). He's this wacky-childish kind of person. If I remember it correctly he was also my dancing partner on a school event. He is also a genius in math like every time we have assignments, before the class starts, I copy we copy his assignment and when the paper gets back to him, it's crumpled up and it doesn't bother him at all. The last time I saw him was last year, we had a couple of drinks with some friends and did a lot of catching up, he also updated me about what was going on with the lives of other batch mates. After that, all I got was text messages and forwarded quotes from him, last one was 4 days ago. He was in Baguio like a couple of weeks ago but I wasn't able to meet up with him, I was at mom's place that time and it was raining so I bailed.
It is a sad day, still trying to absorb that news and still in doubt if the accident really happened. When I found out about it, I logged in on Facebook and there it was, wall postings of friends giving their condolence to the family. That thing is not a joke-able thing so the accident is real.

I am so much affected by this kind of situation because never have I been to a burial to any of my closest relative(meaning all are still alive,wishing it could stay that way). I am afraid of the impact it will have on me if someone close to me be ending up dead. Just the thought of it makes me so sad. With this kind of situation, no one will be emotionally ready. Death is a part of life. We don't have no other choice but to accept it and move on.

I will miss you Christian Timothy Tulac. He's just 23. Too young.:(

...and even though you are gone your love will live on, I miss you lots, you will remain in my heart forever and I will never forget you
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